4:30 am and I'm still awake...

Ok.. I'm still awake from 1:30 that is. My baby has been up off and on all night and I'm exhausted. I dont know if it's her teeth, or what, but she's been up and down every few hours.

I had a hard time going to sleep on account of a lot of work troubles, and now this. I am afraid to go to sleep because it will be so hard to get up. I dont know if I'll be more tired if I get 3 more hours of sleep or if I just push myself through and not sleep at all.

Over the past few days at work, I've come to learn that I'm going to be relocated to another work group. Its been decided that the files that I've been working on are better suited to another group's responsibility, however, this group is not one in which I would have sought work. And the nature of the larger group in which I now report is not an area in which I feel I have a particular expertise or any knowledge. Basically, it doesn't look like a good job fit. And the leader of group that I now have to leave is not offering me an opportunity to stay.

How do I look at this and not take it personally? I have been with that group for 4 years. Recently its come under new direction (while I was away on maternity leave). I came back after leave and was asked to take over a different set of files in the interim, while the person who was working on them went away on education leave. However, now the fact that I'm working on these "interim files" are the reason I'm being pushed out of the door. It has absolutely nothing to do with my skills or past experience.

I really liked working at this place. It had an excellent staff, interesting work, great location, supportive of work-life balance. I really liked the nature of the work (everything except the extreme "RUSH" nature of it). I have a lot of friends there. I didn't really want to leave. I got into the group through the independent competition process, completely legitimately. But now I have been told I have to leave. I have no choice. And this group that I'm leaving is still doing some "hiring" to fill in some vacancies, however it doesnt appear that I'd be given any option to fill one of those positions.

I've done nothing wrong here but go away on leave and happen to come back to the wrong files. I've got more to offer to the group than what I'm doing, and what I'm being offered, but apparently there's no recourse for this. I'm definitely not being seen as a person with a history and a wide variety of skills. Our senior management (higher than the people that have made this decision) has indicated that there is a shortage of people in the branch with skills that I possess. I dont understand. It hurts me so deeply that this has happened TO me, without my knowledge or consent.

And its keeping me up at night.

The person that made this decison wouldnt know me from anyone else on the street. There's no way they actually know my skills, experience and education. But I'm still taking this very personally.. despite the fact that there's no way this could be personal, considering the decision makers don't know me.

How do I deal with this?